Sister's Pain (poem)

Sister I hear you crying
As momma is holding you near
Flip the circumstance
I’m pushed in the cold
Being scolded as if I am to blame.
Now is that fair.
We hurt the same, we cry the same
But why is only one to blame
You call on me to comfort you
as only a sister can do
Then she sweeps right in and takes over
She’s angry and mad at all the things
that have given you pain
To see me and flee as to give me “tough love”
Why have my open arms closed?
Resented for the mistakes she’s made but yet I pay
I pay with the life I lead each day
Tarnished by the pain of her path,
Left to die inside or pick up on my own.
Your pain is short lived on the outside at least
For the mall and spa have comforted you many a day
With help of momma paying your way
But I just close my eyes and watch the tears drop inside my heart
As I watch from outside the window like a little girl, lost
But on the outside I just sit and stare wondering when the window will open
And swing my way
I guess we only feel the same on the inside
And on the outside we’re just playing two different games.